ok, so this is really pink.  haha.  and thats weird.  well, i dont know what to say.  this weekend was boring.  uneventful.  only thing that happened was katrina came over with smokes and elyi called.  that was it.  i dunno.

we got our tree yesterday.  sometimes decorating the tree is the worst part of xmas.  i hate it at my moms because she and allyson always do everything together, when im over my dads and then make me put my silver ones up all by my lonesome.  and at my dads, cody takes charge.   i think i hate xmas so much because i always feel like i dont even belong to my own familly.

i hate the whole gift part too.  i hate giving gifts.  i always have.  and you know how little kids usually love giving gifts?  well, i hated it because nobody ever seemed to apreciate the things i got them [given it was with their money and they were dollar store things purchased from the school] and it didnt make me feel all that wonderfull when my mother would look at the #1 mom key chain i got her and say 'oooo...  thanks honey' in this gawd-this-is-the-worst-gift-ever voice.

and i hate getting gifts.  i always feel like a spoiled little snot ball when im un-wrapping them.  then i look at them dont really react because i dont want to seem like my mom, but i dont want to seem like my brother either, that fucking brat.

i dont know.  i may be jewish this year, but i still have to go through xmas.  i dont know how im going to make it through the month.

and now im going to say something that i would under no other circumstances be able to say.  and it is honestly none of anybody's business why im saying it.  so dont ask who im saying it to or why.
i fucking hate you.

<3 kayt.

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____PLAY____
[x] feeling: cold, lonely, ba-hum-bug-y
[x] Listening: sports center [my dads watching it downstairs & i can hear it]
[x] Talking: to elyi & mike & my dad
[x] doing: typing & yelling football scores to my dad
[x] craving: tacos
[x] thinking of: meeting mike
[x] hating: xmas

____LOVE?____
[x] love is: confusing
[x] first love: adam
[x] current love: n/a
[x] love or lust?: put them both in a bowl and use that electic mixer thing i love so much
[x] best love song: 'every thug needs a lady' alkaline trio
[x] is it possible to be in love w/ more than one person @ the same time?: yes.
[x] when love hurts, you: cut
[x] true or false - all you need is love: true
[x] have you ever been in love?: once, maybe twice
[x] is there such thing as love @ first sight?: yes.

____THE OPPOSITE SEX____
[x] turn ons: scrawnyness, eyes, hair, jewlery
[x] turn offs: straight edge
[x] does your parents' opinion on your bf/gf matter to you?: no, but if my dog doesnt like him then hes obviousely not so great and dogs always love girls 
[x] what kinda hair style?: depends
[x] the sweetest thing a member of the opposite sex can do for you?: be a corny romantic
[x] where do you go to meet new people?: everywhere
[x] are you the type of person to holler n ask for numbers?: no...

 ____PICKY PICKY____
[x] dog or cat: cat
[x] short or long hair: depends
[x] innie or outie: innie
[x] sunshine or rain: rain
[x] moon or sun: moon
[x] basketball or football: football
[x] righty or lefty: righty
[x] hugs or kisses: both
[x] 1 best friend or 10 acquaintances: 1 best friend
[x] bf/gf or best friend: best friend
[x] tv or radio: i hate the radio, dont watch much tv
[x] starbucks or jamba juice: jamba juice?  umm, deffinately starbucks
[x] mc donalds or burger king: i will never eat fast food again
[x] summer or winter: fall
[x] written letters or e-mails: written letters
[x] playstation or nintendo: playstation
[x] disney or nickelodeon: ni-ni-ni-ni-ni-nick-nick-nick, nickelodeon
[x] car or motorcycle: car
[x] house party or club: house party
[x] sing or dance: both, cause i cant do either
[x] freak or slow dance: freak
[x] yahoo messenger or aim: aim
[x] google or ask jeeves?: google