alright guys, heres the deal, ive decided to only use beautifullymutilated for protected & private posting, meaning if you are subscribed to me, you may be able to read my posts, if not, you wont be able to read any.  so for anyone who wishes to keep up with me and my life, go to xanga.com/OneTwoThree_OD as it is where i will be publically posting from now on.  also, if you wish to read any of my poetry, xanga.com/PrettyLikeA_____scumbag is the place to go.

<3 kayt.

what is your world made of?

whos your perfect guy?
your guy is gothic! this is totally not a bad thing. he knows his boundaries, and he knows that if he cross the line he will be in BIG trouble. But he is also experienced, which can be good if are ready to take your relationship to the next level. keep this guy near and dear to you!
your social world [pt 2 of the first one]

[pt 3] how do you see your world?

where does your beauty lie?
Your Beauty lies in Contradiction. Controversial, unpredictable, and never what anyone expects. You appearance and your personality are two opposite things. Even your appearance sends different signals to different people. To some you may look innocent and sweet, to others you look mysterious and intimidating at the same time. No one ever knows what to expect with you. You are a little bit of everything all mixed together. You can be watching the football game with the guys one minute and the next out shopping at the mall. You seem to be almost a different person every time you meet someone, but at the same time you know exactly who you are and there is always that one thing that makes you you. You enjoy keeping people guessing and people love how completely unpredictable you are.
what kind of vampire will you be?

Well well well, the old fashioned 17th century vampire, one of my faves. You look for the good things in life, you posses a lot of classical class, and follow that of the original vampires, you have no shame in what you are, infact you embrace it, you love it and wouldn't have it any other way. Your wealth is unspeakable and your way of luring people with your mystical ways and looks is amazing, and most people would often call you The Seductress.

i got my ring today.  i love it.  its awesome.  im home alone till about ten tonight.  ive got plans for the weekend, its a first in a ling time.  look:
saturday:community service till about four, five oclock, then i got to my moms saturday night
sunday:fun with mike, and elyi and possibly devon.  exactly how this shall work out, not sure yet.
o my, fun will be had.  its great.

if i could talk to myself like i was someone else, well then maybe i could take your advice and i wouldnt act like such an asshole all the time.

<3kayt.

single as of today.

yay.

<3 kayt.

edit-5.27pm
i just got off the phone with my mom.  i was on the phone with her for 70 minutes and 38 seconds.

hahaha.  soo...  whats going to happen to kayt now that shes single?  i dont know.  you tell me.  i feel great.  ive been wanting to break up with him for a while.  and now im done.  yay.  i hate to say thank gawd, but thank gawd.

<3 kayt.

listening to: BAYSIDE

bold all that apply.  [i made this one up myself]

i like good music.
i like boys and girls.
i like it when it rains.
i hate tooth paste.
most of my cds are burned.
i often fall asleep in the shower.
im religious.
my friendships matter more than my boy/girlfriend.
i like peanut butter.
pickles are tasty.
fabreeze could be perfume.
i still waste money on gel pens.
i like wearing clothes right out of the dryer.
i still watch nick.
adult swim on cartoon network.
i like high school.
i hate my parents.
grunge is dead.
im too easilly forgiving.
my hair is short.
i listen to hair metal.
ill be at ozzy's funeral, invite or no.
boys confuse me more than girls.
i watch too much mtv.
flattery is my battery.
i lick the spinny things on electric mixers.
whats the obsession with staplers these days?
i have a passion for bayside.
i dont care what you think.

i bolded a lot.  haha.  i couldnt think of anything that wouldnt apply.

<3 kayt.

edit-5.13

Last Cigarette: today at lunch
Last Kiss: yesterday after school.
Last Cry: i guess its been a few days
Last Library Book Checked Out: "the boom and bust of the air america cocaine ring" i got it today for my research paper. 
Last Movie Seen In a Theatre: troy, i think
Last Book Read: "interview with the vampire"
Last Cuss Word Uttered: fuck if i remember
Last Beverage Drank: milk
Last Food Consumed: pomegrantate
Last Phone Call: renee, but she left a message, last time i was actually on the phone, elyi
Last TV Show Watched: simpsons
Last Time Showered: this morning
Last Shoes Worn: black/white/lipstickred vans
Last CD Played: good mourning: alkaline trio
Last Soda Drank: pepsi, i think
Last Thing Written: vocab sentences for english
Last Words Spoken: MOVE [to my dog] [hes always in my way]
Last Sleep: Last night..
Last IM: mike
Last Ice Cream Eaten: i dont remember i dont much care for ice cream anymore
Last Time Wanting to Die: <---shrugs.  never wanted to actually die
Last Lipstick: I don't wear lipstick
Last Time Dancing: in my room with the music real loud, yesterday, when my dad & cody went to the qmart
Last Show Attended: december fourth i think.  two saturdays ago.  didnt have much fun. 
Last Big Car Ride: <---shrugs.
Last Crush: cough.

<3 kayt.

edit-5.45pm
go to www.santamosh.com

edit-7.26pm
o dear gawd, aims not working!  this is the end.

edit-7.44pm
ok, so ive decided its about time that i go to my room and watch my god damned csi.  mike, you rock, youre the coolest, i totally dig you, but i keep missing csi.  maybe you should just kidnap me or something.  plus i have to do my vocab homework still.  arg.  i hate vocab.  arg.  well, good night folks, ill be in bed sleeping, thinking of my elyi, and hanging out with mike.  hes truly awesome.  'baby ive been drinking with some friends, now how about a little kiss?' [gentalman caller/cursive]  that was random, but thats what im listening to.  umm...  elyi, we have to make plans.  mike, we too must make plans.  um...  yeah.  nothing much else to say.  save that im addicted to indie.  how, i dont know.  is indie a cool thing?  cause i dont know many people that like it.  like, me, and a few who are willing to listen to it, but really have no preference towards it.  whatever.  so bright eyes and cursive and such bands are kinda, ruling my world at the moment.  i wont be home after school tomorrow, maybe around four thirty, five oclock.  because renee changed my appointment with bill to tomorrow rather than wednsday as it usually is.  anyway, its 7.51 and the next csi is on at eight.  time to go.
<3kayt.

ok, so this is really pink.  haha.  and thats weird.  well, i dont know what to say.  this weekend was boring.  uneventful.  only thing that happened was katrina came over with smokes and elyi called.  that was it.  i dunno.

we got our tree yesterday.  sometimes decorating the tree is the worst part of xmas.  i hate it at my moms because she and allyson always do everything together, when im over my dads and then make me put my silver ones up all by my lonesome.  and at my dads, cody takes charge.   i think i hate xmas so much because i always feel like i dont even belong to my own familly.

i hate the whole gift part too.  i hate giving gifts.  i always have.  and you know how little kids usually love giving gifts?  well, i hated it because nobody ever seemed to apreciate the things i got them [given it was with their money and they were dollar store things purchased from the school] and it didnt make me feel all that wonderfull when my mother would look at the #1 mom key chain i got her and say 'oooo...  thanks honey' in this gawd-this-is-the-worst-gift-ever voice.

and i hate getting gifts.  i always feel like a spoiled little snot ball when im un-wrapping them.  then i look at them dont really react because i dont want to seem like my mom, but i dont want to seem like my brother either, that fucking brat.

i dont know.  i may be jewish this year, but i still have to go through xmas.  i dont know how im going to make it through the month.

and now im going to say something that i would under no other circumstances be able to say.  and it is honestly none of anybody's business why im saying it.  so dont ask who im saying it to or why.
i fucking hate you.

<3 kayt.

edit-7.33

____PLAY____
[x] feeling: cold, lonely, ba-hum-bug-y
[x] Listening: sports center [my dads watching it downstairs & i can hear it]
[x] Talking: to elyi & mike & my dad
[x] doing: typing & yelling football scores to my dad
[x] craving: tacos
[x] thinking of: meeting mike
[x] hating: xmas

____LOVE?____
[x] love is: confusing
[x] first love: adam
[x] current love: n/a
[x] love or lust?: put them both in a bowl and use that electic mixer thing i love so much
[x] best love song: 'every thug needs a lady' alkaline trio
[x] is it possible to be in love w/ more than one person @ the same time?: yes.
[x] when love hurts, you: cut
[x] true or false - all you need is love: true
[x] have you ever been in love?: once, maybe twice
[x] is there such thing as love @ first sight?: yes.

____THE OPPOSITE SEX____
[x] turn ons: scrawnyness, eyes, hair, jewlery
[x] turn offs: straight edge
[x] does your parents' opinion on your bf/gf matter to you?: no, but if my dog doesnt like him then hes obviousely not so great and dogs always love girls 
[x] what kinda hair style?: depends
[x] the sweetest thing a member of the opposite sex can do for you?: be a corny romantic
[x] where do you go to meet new people?: everywhere
[x] are you the type of person to holler n ask for numbers?: no...

 ____PICKY PICKY____
[x] dog or cat: cat
[x] short or long hair: depends
[x] innie or outie: innie
[x] sunshine or rain: rain
[x] moon or sun: moon
[x] basketball or football: football
[x] righty or lefty: righty
[x] hugs or kisses: both
[x] 1 best friend or 10 acquaintances: 1 best friend
[x] bf/gf or best friend: best friend
[x] tv or radio: i hate the radio, dont watch much tv
[x] starbucks or jamba juice: jamba juice?  umm, deffinately starbucks
[x] mc donalds or burger king: i will never eat fast food again
[x] summer or winter: fall
[x] written letters or e-mails: written letters
[x] playstation or nintendo: playstation
[x] disney or nickelodeon: ni-ni-ni-ni-ni-nick-nick-nick, nickelodeon
[x] car or motorcycle: car
[x] house party or club: house party
[x] sing or dance: both, cause i cant do either
[x] freak or slow dance: freak
[x] yahoo messenger or aim: aim
[x] google or ask jeeves?: google

i dont know.

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[a]ge: 16
[b]estfriends: elyi
[c]hoice of meat: its weird, but i love corned beef hash.
[d]ream date: sitting in the woods in the rain just talking
[e]xciting adventure: life after high school
[f]avorite food: mac n cheese
[g]reatest accomplishment: none
[h]appiest day of your life: the day i met adam
[i]nterests: its over there <------
[j]ello: EW!
[k]ool aid: i hate kool aid
[l]ove: i wanna be in it
[m]ost valued: the neclace around my wrist
[n]ame: kayt
[o]utfit you wore to school today: my dollhouse jeans that keep falling off my long sleeve black shirt and my him shirt.  and my black op hoodie
[p]izza topping: peperoni
[q]uestion most asked: why?
[r]adio station: y 100 though im not a big fan of the radio
[s]port: youre kidding right?
[t]elevision show: csi
[u]r favorite song: anything smashing pumpkins [i dont really have a favorite song]
[w]here you live: lansdale
[x]yz: pdq?
[y]ear born: 1988
[z]odiac sign: gemini

edit-4.51
i really just dont know.  im so fucked up.  why do i always do this?  and why the fuck is it always the same god damned person that starts this for me?  i just dont get it.  well fuck it.  what ever happens happens.

</3 kayt.